You'll find recipes here, you'll find a good laugh, you might find recommendations, you'll hear funny blackmailing stories about my children, and you'll also hear about topics that go a little bit deeper, and delve into struggles we face.
We are going through a difficult time right now. You can read about that here. It just so happens that we're human, we are Christians and we will face trials and tribulations. Life won't always be peachy. Try looking in the bible for that. Peachy wasn't promised.
As I've been coping with our recent health issues and the complications that have followed I started reflecting on the past when I've felt hopeless, or lost, confused, sad, and broken.
I don't feel that I can share with you our struggles without also sharing with you the deliverance and answered prayers that have came later on down the road. Despite the trial or tribulation God was always working out things for our good behind the scenes. We didn't know it then, but we know it now. That is the hope, the promise and the rock that I stand upon now. I don't know why what is happening is happening, but I do know that God is working in this situation and He is working it out FOR OUR GOOD. It may not be discovered today or tomorrow but it will come to pass, and when it does we'll proclaim that even through this heartbreaking season God was working behind the scenes.
Let me share with you some "behind the scenes" work.
On Easter this year our church did an outreach ministry. Our pastor reached out to all the expecting mothers in the area (and beyond) because He felt lead to provide them a baby shower a huge multi-pregnant lady baby shower. On Easter Sunday he invited all the expecting mothers (there were LOTS of them) to come down to the front of the church and share with them that the church would like to provide them with baby supplies and a shower. (side note: our church is in a low income area of town and without the church providing these baby supplies the babies would have gone without so it was a wonderful outreach program).
Well let me tell you one thing right now. I was sitting in the left corner of my back pew falling into one million pieces. Before me stood multiple ladies who had the desire of my heart. They were pregnant. I was not. I was broken. If I could have disappeared I would have been gone in a flash. It was one of the hardest moments of my life. Facing the fact that 20+ women stood before me pregnant as pregnant can be, and there I was barren, sad, and heartbroken. Then the sobbing broke out, my entire body shook under the heartbreak of what stood before me and the heartbreak of never being able to have what those ladies had. Where was God? Where was the comforter? Where was the peace that passes all understanding? Where was MY healing? Why weren't MY prayers being answered?
Now...let me tell you what God had going on "behind the scenes".
Easter was on April 24th. The little baby that is laying beside me at this very moment was born on April the 12th. When I was broken, God already had a baby out there for us. He was 12 days old. That was where my God was, that was the answer to my prayers, that was the desire of my heart. I was begging God for my baby and my baby was already 12 days old.
I don't know how long this baby will be with us, we have hope that this is our forever family.
So, whatever your going through, no matter how broken, discouraged and lost you may be feeling. Take courage, God is working behind the scenes. Your deliverance may be done the road, but your deliverance is most certainly coming. It's coming in Gods time.
I don't know why we have suffered multiple miscarriages, I don't understand why my body can't do what a woman's body should do, I don't understand why I'm facing problems and scares that threaten my health.
What I do know is that God is working in this situation, and "farther along, we'll know all about it, farther along we'll understand why".
Work is going on behind the scenes, and as we climb this mountain relying on faith every step of the way I know that deliverance will come in His time.
Here is another real life behind the scenes testimony!
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