Three's Company

We are a family of 3 once more. 

The babies went home on Monday afternoon. 

We miss them terribly, however we are trusting in God's perfect plan for all of our lives. 

I have daily contact with the biological mother and she is wonderful at keeping us in the loop.  I can't begin to tell you how rare this is.  It has made the transition so much smoother.  It brings me quite a bit of comfort to be able to communicate openly with the bio family.  The only thing that matters right now is the well being of the boys and I will do whatever I can to help the mom be the best mother she can be. 

I don't know that everything has completely sunk in yet.  Allen had surgery on Tuesday and didn't come home until Thursday so we've had ZERO routine.  I feel like I've been scrambling around like a crazy person all week.  I can definitely see the blessing in the upheaval of our routine.  It's kept me busy, and there hasn't been a moment of downtime. 

I've been able to catch up on so much around the house and boy am I glad that I did because we received a phone call this morning about 2 new placements.  We have the basic details (which is hardly any) and nothing has been set in stone.  So, if we do become a family of 5 again at least the majority of my heavy cleaning and decluttering has been done. 

More than ever I'm realizing what our "calling" truly is.  If the boys hadn't of gone back to their mom earlier this week we wouldn't have been called about the new placements this morning.  I love it when God allows me to see a bit of the big picture.  The new placements need a home and now we can provide that home.  The rest is just details.  Our door and our hearts remain open to whatever lies ahead. 

I can't express how much I love and miss the boys.  Words seem so flat compared to what my heart feels.  When children enter our home we love them just like they are our permanent forever babies.  We bond with them without taking into consideration the uncertainty of their future with us.  As much as it hurts when they must leave I wouldn't change how we treat them.  I never want a child to enter our home feeling like a "foster kid".  They are our children, and we will love them like crazy.

I am so thankful to have been able to be the mommy they needed when they needed it.  I'd do it again in a heartbeat.  I learned so much about myself, and motherhood during their time with us.  I am better because they were in my life.  They continue to be a blessing to me even in their absence. 

Well...here we go!  A bright future awaits all of us.  While our hearts ache for what was, it also beats with excitement for whats to come. 

Our journey continues to be filled with "Ups and Downs, Smiles and Frowns".