Where we are

This post has been deleted and re posted more times then I care to count.  But, I feel in my spirit there is someone, somewhere out there who may need to read this, and I know that I need to write it. 

Allen and I have been on an emotional roller coaster these past few days. 

Tuesday night (well actually EARLY Wednesday morning) we suffered a miscarriage.  It hasn't been our first.  I pray without ceasing it is our last. It is clear that my body can't handle another pregnancy anytime soon... if ever.  Quite a bit of damage has been done to my uterus and ovaries and it would be dangerous for a pregnancy to happen again. 

I'm not ashamed to admit that I don't understand everything that happens in our lives.  If I'm being completely honest I take quite a bit of comfort in that too.  God knows what He's doing, and right now I place every single bit of everything I am in that knowledge. 

I have 3 of the most amazing children any mother could ask for.  I have a caring, loving, understanding, and Godly husband.  I have parents who love and cherish me and my family.  I have friends who come running to help me in anytime I need them.  I have In-laws who treat me like "real" family.  I am blessed. 

We are sad, and confused.  God knows where we are, and He will heal this situation in the matter He sees fit. 

We appreciate all your prayers and keep em coming! 

He's God in the good times, and He's God in the bad times.  We cling to that promise.