Love them today.

Since the arrival of the two babies we've been asked one particular question at least one bazillion times by complete strangers, family, friends, acquaintances, the bag boy at the grocery store, random homeless people...OK so not that last one.  I threw it in there to see if you were paying attention.

Here's the question phrased a couple different ways.

"what will you do if you can't adopt them and they go back to their parents?"

"What will you do if they take them away?"

I by no means would call us "seasoned" foster parents.  We've had many different experiences and many different children, but not nearly as many as most.  So I'm not sure if my way of doing this is the best way to go about it but through losing Gabby and Anna and then going through our other foster children (and teens) who have been in our home I'm doing this the best way I can, and the only way my emotions will let me.  Beyond a shadow of a doubt I will be devastated if these boys have to leave us, those thoughts cannot dictate my life and my relationships it isn't fair to anyone...especially my children who need me today. 

My answer is always the same to these questions.

I love them today. 

I wake up in the morning and dedicate every breath, and every moment of my day to ensure they are loved...today.  They are my children regardless of who they came from or what they came from and they will be treated like I would treat a child that I've adopted or birthed (although the birthing hasn't  happenedd)

I adore them...today.  I refuse to let my mind wander into tomorrow and the things it may bring.  If I am constantly worried about if or when we will be able to call these 2 babies "Pruitt's" then that is valuable energy I am wasting that I could be giving to my boys today.  I never want to pull back, or be hesitant to grow strong and lasting bonds and if my thoughts constantly center around when or if they leave is a vicious cycle that I will not start. 

They are mine today.
I love them today.
I am their mother today.
They are my sons today.

Today.  That's all I have with them, and that's all you have with your children/husband/parent/friend/sister or brother.  Tomorrow isn't promised for anyone.

I don't know what tomorrow holds, but I know who holds it.  The creator of tomorrow has commissioned me to love these children TODAY, and He'll work the rest out. 

 Love them today. 
Make memories with them today.
Make their life amazing today.